Journey With God


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I have always loved the change in seasons. Fall is my favorite season, but in general I love
them all. I love that when I am just about fed up with one season, it is time for a change.
Everything shifts and feels like a brand new chance. I also love how the changing seasons
marks out the change in time, from one phase and then on to the next.

Now when it comes to my life, I am not often as enthusiastic about change. Change can be
hard. We don’t know what to expect. Change can even be scary and require a step of faith.
I am in a season like that now. I’m getting older, and my kids are getting older and it makes me think a lot about what the future holds. It makes me feel sad and happy all at the same time.

I have always love Landslide by Stevie Nicks. I first heard it as a young girl. It was actually
written the year I was born. I have always found the song sad even when I was still just a child myself, but now…. oh boy. It is actually very interesting to me that this song was written the year I was born. It has been there during all the seasons of my life. When I was a teenager looking toward the future. When I was growing up in my twenties, and now in this season of my life. The lyrics really hit home for me. “Can the child in my heart rise above? Can I sail through the changing ocean tides? Can I handle the seasons of my life? I don’t know.” “I’ve been afraid of changing, cause I built my life around you. But time makes you bolder, even children get older and I’m getting older too.”

Many times I resist change. I think most of us do. But, even though I don’t always like change, I do like new things and new adventures. I also don’t always like being out of my comfort zone, but I do like becoming a better, more rounded person. I think it is interesting how very often we can love a result, or destination, but not always like the price to get there. Interesting, how that works. But as sad as the time passing can be, and the end of a season, it would be just as sad, if not sadder to never change and get stuck in a season. So, can I handle the seasons of my life? Well, just like the lyrics say, I don’t know. But I do know that as much as some things change, some stay the same. I find comfort in that and that my Savior, Jesus Christ, is the same yesterday, today and forever. I think I can face the future, and come what may, He is always there, and soon enough, good or bad, this season will pass and another will lay in front of me.

Blessings my friends.

Trust Without Borders

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I recently heard a song at Morningstar that hit me hard. One of the lines is “Spirit lead me where my trust is without borders”. I could dwell and sink into that one line for ages. Where my trust is without borders. Wow! I want to walk in that place. In a place where deep calls unto deep and where my faith is without borders because my trust is in the one who knows all, owns all, and made all. I want to trust you like that Father God. Lead me there. I want to walk on the water because I am heading toward you. Help me, Lord, keep my eyes on you so that I don’t sink. Help me, Lord, hearken to your voice every step along this path of mine. Thank you Lord for loving me.

Some of the lyrics to that song:

Spirit lead me where my trust is without borders
Let me walk upon the waters
Wherever You would call me
Take me deeper than my feet could ever wander
And my faith will be made stronger
In the presence of my Savior

I will call upon Your name
Keep my eyes above the waves
My soul will rest in Your embrace
I am Yours and You are mine

Slient wave

Ordinary Love

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I’m here at Morningstar Ministries and am blown away from so much vision and anointing. I am being immensely blessed. I want to share a small portion from the conference with you today. Julie Joyner spoke on being uniquely created and designed by God. She also spoke about ordinary love and how important it is to love one another and honor each other and each other’s uniqueness.

I am going to start a series on here about identity but for now I want to say we must embrace who we are. Who God create us to be and walk in it. God created us to be in His image,yet we each of us is unique. Like sand, at first glance we all look similar.



But with a closer look, we truly see our uniqueness.

Sand magnified:



Each of us are unique. God created us that way. We can only be who we are. We need to embrace our uniqueness and love one another. We must love with the love, that Jesus has loved us with. We should wear Gods love.

We should at least have ordinary love for one another. Even when no one is looking. Do we still have ordinary love? Who are we when no ones looking? How do we treat that grocery clerk, the waitress or the maid who just cleaned our room?

If we don’t love one another what else matters?

Julie said she found the lyrics to Bono’s song Ordinary Love inspiring and so do I, so I want to leave you with these lyrics and video from Bono. Really think about them and let them sink in.

The sea wants to kiss the golden shore
The sunlight warms your skin
All the beauty that’s been lost before
Wants to find us again

I can’t fight you anymore
It’s you I’m fighting for
The sea throws rocks together
But time leaves us polished stones

We can’t fall any further
If we can’t feel ordinary love
And we cannot reach any higher
If we can’t deal with ordinary love

Birds fly high in the summer sky
And rest on the breeze
The same wind will take care of you and I
We’ll build our house in the trees

Your heart is on my sleeve
Did you put it there with a magic marker?
For years I would believe
That the world couldn’t wash it away

‘Cause we can’t fall any further
If we can’t feel ordinary love
And we cannot reach any higher
If we can’t deal with ordinary love

Are we tough enough
For ordinary love

We can’t fall any further
If we can’t feel ordinary love
And we cannot reach any higher
If we can’t deal with ordinary love

We can’t fall any further
If we can’t feel ordinary love
And we cannot reach any higher
If we can’t deal with ordinary love

Letting Go

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At the beginning of the year God told me I needed to let go of the “how” and my own plans. His plans were better for me. Now, that is hard for me. I’ve always been a “how” kind of girl and a true planner. I plan things like vacation months in advance. The actual planning is part of the fun for me. But. (One small little word that changes the direction of things.) But, I want God’s plans for my life. I know his plans are so much better. All of this got me thinking. How many times do we miss out because we plan everything instead of letting the spirit lead us? How often do we let our own thoughts and anxieties take over the very thoughts that God gave us. How many times do we try and take His call on our lives into our own hands. He has laid out our steps. We just need to follow. Day by day.

Learning to take things day by day, and step by step is really hard for me. I imagine it is hard for most of us. If you are like me, I have often tried to negotiate with God for a 5 year plan. However I have come to realize that sometimes if he actually gave it to us, we would not be able to either handle it or believe him. Most often God’s plans are so big, we may not be able to wrap our brains around what he has for us in the next five years. When I was newly married at 21, I think I would have freaked out a little bit if God would have told me I was going to have 3 kids in the next five years and countless trials and tribulations. When I was 30, if God had told me I would have another child and start two businesses I think I would have been intimidated. If he would have let me know that a few years later I would start a career in Real estate, I would have tried to figure it all out on my own. So many times we ask for something and we don’t have any idea what it would be like if God actually answered in that moment.

This brings me full circle to today. In 2007, God placed a love in my heart for Hatteras Island. At the time I prayed and asked God for an answer for why I felt so connected to that area. He didn’t answer. I sat in a cafe, on the Pamlico Sound, with tears in my eyes and didn’t understand why he wouldn’t just tell me. Today I understand. As I sit in the same cafe 7 years later I understand. It was too big to show me then. The seeds needed to grow roots. And even though I still don’t have the complete picture, I understand. It had to be God’s timing. I needed to wait and to be led by the spirit.

I’m still learning, but I am giving it my all. Laying down my own plans and my own strategies for his. I am trusting that he has the answers. I’m letting him lead me week by week, day by day, or even as a good friend of mine recently said half hour by half hour. That’s all I can do. The rest is up to him and there is such peace in that. His plans are better and I am excited now about letting go of the how and my own plans.

Don’t Stop Pushing

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At the beginning of the year I had a dream of being in labor. I was in a delivery room and I said “I can’t do it any longer. I need to stop.” I immediately woke up. I heard God say to me. “Don’t stop pushing. You are almost there.”

There comes a time when you are birthing something that you will want to stop. But most likely that’s when you are close and must not/can not stop pushing. You’re almost there.

I have four children and let me tell you birthing isn’t a lot of fun in my opinion. It’s hard, it’s painful, it’s exhausting. Yet when that baby is put into your arms, you don’t even remember the pain and exhaustion.

Life can be a lot like child birth especially when we are going through trials and waiting on God to move. It can be hard, painful and exhausting. When we are in that kind of season how many times have we given up or felt like giving up?

Well, let me share something else I have learned through giving birth. When you are the closest to delivery, is when it becomes the hardest. It’s called transition. It’s no surprise that it’s called transition. Transition by definition is:

-the process or a period of changing from one state or condition to another.
-to undergo or cause to undergo a process or period of transition.

Transition by definition is movement and change. It’s a process. It can be a hard and painful one but with a great reward on the other side. Even if you can’t see what is going, something is moving. You must trust that things are changing whether you can see them or not. I know it can feel like a long, dark, scary tunnel. Like a long, dark night without a dawn. But you have to come out the other side. You will come out on the other side. Because what’s been waiting there will be glorious.

I know you are tired. I know you’ve been waiting. But wait a little longer. Keep the faith. Pray a little harder. God knows his plans for you. And right now is your transition. So take a deep breath, focus on the other side and don’t stop pushing. You’re almost there.



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I love sunsets. God is an artist. Here are a few of my favorite sunset pictures.





Will you or won’t you?

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Recently my pastor preached on a word that has been on my heart for quite sometime. Obedience. Such a simple word. We use it all the time. We talk about how our children need to obey. We talk about obeying the law. We even use obedience when talking about our pets. But do we really understand its importance, especially when we are talking about Christianity. Do we really grasp the importance of obeying what God wants us to do. So, I pose a simple question….

Will you do what God asks or won’t you?

When he asks us to deny ourselves and follow after him, will we lay down the things that separate us from God? Will we do the things that seem strange, crazy, or that put us out of our comfort zone? What if what He is asking is hard? Even when it is terribly hard will we obey? I hope our answer is yes, though I know far too often our answer is no. We may not completely understand that we are saying no, but if we are not walking in God’s will, then that is exactly what we are saying.

The bible tells us if we love God then we will obey, sounds simple enough right? But yet we don’t always obey. Maybe we are scared. Maybe we are unsure of what we are hearing. Maybe we are just selfish. Whatever the reason, the reason really is not the issue. Jesus lived to make the Father happy and glad. That is what we should do. If you are a parent, you know that is what you want from your child. You want obedience. And you want obedience not because you are a big, mean parent. You want obedience, because you want what is best for your child. Well, church, that is why God wants obedience.

Obedience is about love. Obedience is about God’s love for us and our love for him. We become obedient when we love what the Father loves. Because we value what the Father values. Our Lord God is perfect in all ways. The things He wants for us are better than anything we can imagine. He wants us to obey because He sees the whole picture and knows what is waiting for us on the other side of obedience.

At the end of the day, it may look strange. It most likely will be uncomfortable and even hard at first. But the more you obey, the more of God’s presence you will see in your life and the quicker and easier it will become to obey. But easy is relative. No one said it was suppose to be easy. In fact the Word says the way is narrow. But it comes down to this, we are called to obey.

So the questions becomes and easy one.

Will I or won’t I? My way or God’s way? My will or God’s will?

How about it church? Where are we at? Our will, or God’s will be done on earth as it is in heaven? So church, I ask you. Will we or won’t we?